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Portsmouth, NH --> Jacksonville, FL --> King's Bay, GA --> Panama City, Panama --> Pearl Harbor, Hawaii.

Lots and lots of pictures. Being in the Navy is at least great for that. Tomorrow I got house hunting. Its been a while since I have been inspired enough to get on here.

I will be uploading some new images from Panama to Hawaii, with a swim call in the middle of the pacific ocean along the way.

Cant dwell. Every second of your life is precious, and to waste such a resource should be considered a great crime. Went out to Colorado, Utah, Nevada, California, Arizona and took lots of pictures. I will be uploading them soon.

Ok, so I am feeling that same familiar pain deep inside that I had thought I would never feel again. But Amanda Marie Hill betrayed me (I included a link so you can leave your comments on her photos...). We were supposed to get married soon but she has apparently been telling people that her and I have been broken up for some time now and I had no idea. This whole time she has bee telling me how much she loved me and was excited that I was coming down to visit. But a few days ago her mom contacted me and I found out the bad news. when i tried to question Amanda about it she completely cut off contact with me. And because of my distance and military status I am unable to confront her about it. Though it is probably best.

That aside, my dad who is now been drug and alcohol and smoke free for 3 years is moving back out to California to do some surfing and hang out with some old high school buddies. So, good for him. I am about to head back to my boat in Portsmouth, NH. My job is about to become much more time consuming very soon. I am submitting a few pictures tonight that are a metaphorical reference to my mood, since most of them have a gloomy feel to them. Right now I am feeling detached from reality as if i am watching my life go by on a reality TV show. Just more pointless drama. And I am broke again, mostly because of my "recuperation" of going to a strip club. Which, by the way, I would never recommend. Because now I not only feel as empty as I did when I got there, my wallet is also as empty as I feel.

I started talking to my mother again and found out that she said a bunch of fucked up shit to me because she didn't ask me about some shit she heard about back in the day and I told her to go fuck herself. Which based on what she heard was a bad move on my part. Then after I stopped talking to her a bunch of other crap happened to her that was attributed to me, although in all actuality I had nothing to do with it.

Oh and I also started talking to my long lost ex-fiancee, Lisa Asbel. Well, her last name isn't Asbel anymore. But the guy she is with seems like a pretty cool dude. So I hope he treats her well, because she deserves it . I went about several things in the past the wrong way, and couldn't get rid of all of the hatred and anger inside of me and ended up ruining our relationship. It took me a long time and a lot of broken heart to learn how to forgive someone. I also hope that with time I can gain her as a friend again. We were friends before we dated, and I tell you what, she is a priceless person to have as a friend.

Ok thats it for now. Posting pics and probably going to bed. You all have a great night.

Well, as I try to perfect my photographic abilities, I am trying to learn how to wrestle a dude that weighs almost 280lbs of solid muscle (hardcore), I work on the USS Louisville as a Nuclear Reactor Electrician, as I work on my mechanical skills with repairing/upgrading my motorcycle, I am trying to program a reactor simulator (huge project to be solo'ed), I am maintaining a command website for my boat, and I recently took up the responsibility of "Command Photographer" for my boat. I seem to have little to no time to slow down and relax, having spread myself so thin it can get tough to work on art sometimes; although, right now, thats my biggest stress reliever. This upcoming wrestling match seems like I am going to be destroyed, but we will see. Maybe it wont be too bad. Its a lot of fun either way Btw I have also started reading 1984 and animal farm. George Orwell writes with a rather unusual form of complex metaphors.

Got loads of awesome shots. Also bought a Polarizing Filter for my camera, makes water look really nice.